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i see forests in shades of green
and everything else in shades of grey
but the only thing in between is an empty house
and conversation i don't need
there's no darkness inside me so stay away
i hope that someday soon you'll be as happy as you're pretending to be
there's no darkness inside me so stay away
carve my name in your door and cross it out
i hear sounds i envy and music my brain won't hear or play
i want to hum along in perfect pitch
my days consist of watching everyone i know through resentful lenses like prisons
i want to participate in this world i've come to hate
there's no darkness inside me so stay away
i hope that someday soon you'll be as happy as you're pretending to be
there's no darkness inside me so stay away
carve my name in your door and cross it out
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2. |
Primer
02:26
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decomposing, my eyes roll to the back of my head when i tell you
i haven't been this sick in years
sleep too much, don't sleep enough
my hands shake when i tell you
i'm not well
yr not my favorite anymore
so teach me to sing some songs i won't remember in the morning
i'm stumbling out of your bed hungover and wishing for death
ba ba ba ba da
hey don't fucking talk to me
we're all diseased, a fucking curse but i'll find solace in the fact hey we're gonna die
hey we're gonna die
we're gonna die someday
so teach me to sing some songs i won't remember in the morning
i'm stumbling out of your bed hungover and wishing for death
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3. |
Die On Your Birthday
02:13
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i wanna die on my birthday
i feel alright just fine
i'm sick of making things about me
swear this'll be the last time
silence takes over the room
between me and you
i'm sorry this shit sucks i gotta go
begging for your attention
so fuck you again
the bitterest shit kills you in the end
where's the fun in being numb?
i wanna get out of bed
i feel like i'm suffocating, choking on my sheets
i'm seeing double
i'm most comfortable
when i'm alone in your bed
singing myself to sleep
again and again and again and again
silence takes over the room
between me and you
i'm sorry this shit sucks i gotta go
begging for your attention
so fuck you again
the bitterest shit kills you in the end
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Nosebleed
03:42
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i am self-consciously refusing to leave my room
i drank too much and i'm not perfect anymore
perfectly in tune with the setting of the sun
but its brighter now
there's no anger in your eyes anymore
my head is clouded, my arms are weak
my fingers snared and intertwined with yours
you wont let go
there is a gentle fear of never being drunk alone again
we are perfectly in tune
when the sun goes down there's no fear
when i'm there, there is no color
when you leave,
everything is dipped in shades of blue
everything is dipped in shades of blue, and shades of green
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5. |
Ten Year Shitshow
02:17
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my heart keeps freezing and thawing
i lose a little something every time
i wanna sing summer songs
but those aren't the shades of my mind
i haven't been interesting since high school
i used to be mysterious and attractive
i could almost like myself when i was sober
now i make jokes to stay distracted
i swore i'd stop writing songs about you
i wish i'd do the same for me
this introspective bullshit always forgets
the kind of person i continue to be
i haven't been interesting since high school
i used to be mysterious and attractive
i could almost like myself when i was sober
now i make jokes to stay distracted
i'm sick of making myself everybody's problem
nobody likes you when you're struggling
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6. |
The Winter
01:56
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white furry dog
i hope that he's okay
everyone you love will be alright someday
tangentially near a game of basketball
you wore a cute skirt that flows and nothing happened at all
i don't know where you are
i'd like to go there though
i'd like to say hello
ask where you'd go if you could go
i've got nothing to say
but it's so scary when
you know you couldn't say it anyway
i still have your number
but if i called you couldn't answer
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when i sleep
my teeth fall out
and the plane goes down
when i'm awake
i feel the same
everything's fine and gray
the dullest greens
and the hopeless blues
i'm held together by caffeine and booze
in the dog days of a hungover haze
what the fuck am i doing here
everytime you see me, i'm always alone
i'm always in my head, but i don't call that place a home
i'm always sleeping
i'm a catastrophe away from a nightmare
my eyes stay closed
i can't be awake here
don't ask me to stay
in the dog days
of a hungover haze
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a lack of courage
a lack of gall
a lack of anyone at all
who said i had to come back from this?
im not alone because i have my reflection
its telling me to stay in bed
and occupy myself with nothing
because nothing really matters
preoccupy myself with nothing
because nothing really matters
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